"...butterflies invade my stomach when,
to my lips,your lips find their way.."
The feeling's just that when you kiss somebody whom you're meant to be with-or atleast that's what I'd like to believe..that's what I'd like to believe now that I've finally moved on-now that I've finally moved past the guy who'd been a part of my life since the last 13 years and a part of my love life since the past 4 years-when I say he'd been a part of my love life,I dont mean that we'd been together for so long.But well,yea,he had been an occupant of a pretty spacious area of my heart atleast.
From his side,I know I'd for a very long time been the only romantic connection he ever had,although I never became The Love of his life.He was a student at a boarding school,whose walls he'd never jumped over until his last 3 years there..shied away from girls.As a kid,he'd been your nerdy guy who hadnt ever been conscious about the presence of females in his life.I dont know if he disliked them or something but what I do know,is that he'd never had those normal crushes that lil kids just entering their teenage usually do..I'm gonna elaborate on this later.
Basically,I've known him for a very long time since we happened to be studying in the same school,and because he happened to be my elder brother's friend.And like it happens in the movies,we played together as bickering 4 year olds who just couldnt stop fighting with each other.Firecrackers burst whenever we met.Back then,firecrackers of cat-dog fights.
A few years after that,firecrackers of our first kiss.Of my first kiss.Of his first kiss.The kiss that sent my heart racing..it didnt give me any butterflies in my tummy though!I always wanted it to,but it just never happened..does that mean that I didnt love him actually?I dunno.
We would've completed 4 years together today if we'd been together.
It'd gone off and on a million times-I mean our relationship(dont feel like calling it that).He's probably dating some other girl now,but the thought of him sends my heart racing till date..!My crush on him has grown 4 years old today.I've started dating another guy,but I still have a crush on him,I still have a crush on my ex who's been my ex 3 times.
This other guy's kisses put me in a discomfit-although they dont send my heart racing,they do give me 'butterflies in my tummy'..so does that mean that I love him and that we're meant to be?
I'm clueless.
Love,
Madhvika
to my lips,your lips find their way.."
The feeling's just that when you kiss somebody whom you're meant to be with-or atleast that's what I'd like to believe..that's what I'd like to believe now that I've finally moved on-now that I've finally moved past the guy who'd been a part of my life since the last 13 years and a part of my love life since the past 4 years-when I say he'd been a part of my love life,I dont mean that we'd been together for so long.But well,yea,he had been an occupant of a pretty spacious area of my heart atleast.
From his side,I know I'd for a very long time been the only romantic connection he ever had,although I never became The Love of his life.He was a student at a boarding school,whose walls he'd never jumped over until his last 3 years there..shied away from girls.As a kid,he'd been your nerdy guy who hadnt ever been conscious about the presence of females in his life.I dont know if he disliked them or something but what I do know,is that he'd never had those normal crushes that lil kids just entering their teenage usually do..I'm gonna elaborate on this later.
Basically,I've known him for a very long time since we happened to be studying in the same school,and because he happened to be my elder brother's friend.And like it happens in the movies,we played together as bickering 4 year olds who just couldnt stop fighting with each other.Firecrackers burst whenever we met.Back then,firecrackers of cat-dog fights.
A few years after that,firecrackers of our first kiss.Of my first kiss.Of his first kiss.The kiss that sent my heart racing..it didnt give me any butterflies in my tummy though!I always wanted it to,but it just never happened..does that mean that I didnt love him actually?I dunno.
We would've completed 4 years together today if we'd been together.
It'd gone off and on a million times-I mean our relationship(dont feel like calling it that).He's probably dating some other girl now,but the thought of him sends my heart racing till date..!My crush on him has grown 4 years old today.I've started dating another guy,but I still have a crush on him,I still have a crush on my ex who's been my ex 3 times.
This other guy's kisses put me in a discomfit-although they dont send my heart racing,they do give me 'butterflies in my tummy'..so does that mean that I love him and that we're meant to be?
I'm clueless.
Love,
Madhvika
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