I've always wanted to write about my love story with my childhood sweetheart-like write a novel or something on it.Quite obviously,the guy I've mentioned in the above two posts is the same guy who's gonna be mentioned tens of thousand times in these drafts.No prizes for guessing-he's the hero of my story =P
All the names I'm about to mention here are changed.But rest assured,the story or the feelings I've felt while recalling incidents mentioned couldntve been more real-they're nothing if not heartfelt.
I'm just a 17 year old,and yes,you'll quite obviously find most of the things written about in my blog very very 'immature' or 'childish' maybe.What I wanna say to that is that,yea,they're bound to be childish because I am a child after all =P and also,most of the posts are entries that I've directly picked up from my diaries written about 3-4 years back and posted here unaltered(or with very little alteration here and there).
Although I'm a different person now I've done this because I like to recollect the precious,innocent,fun,unadulterated memories of my early teen years..I'm turning 18 this April,and I'm going to be an adult officially,but before that happens,I want to give my childhood that's now abstract,a concrete form-I want to enter my adulthood with the best of the qualities that I possessed as a child.Reading these entries has always reminded me of them and in some absurd manner it's always encouraged me to be a child again.I hope they make anybody who reads them feel the same way =)
I hope they remind the person of their childhood,and make them want to be a child again too.
Lots of everything good,
Madhvika
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Hugs and Kisses.
"...butterflies invade my stomach when,
to my lips,your lips find their way.."
The feeling's just that when you kiss somebody whom you're meant to be with-or atleast that's what I'd like to believe..that's what I'd like to believe now that I've finally moved on-now that I've finally moved past the guy who'd been a part of my life since the last 13 years and a part of my love life since the past 4 years-when I say he'd been a part of my love life,I dont mean that we'd been together for so long.But well,yea,he had been an occupant of a pretty spacious area of my heart atleast.
From his side,I know I'd for a very long time been the only romantic connection he ever had,although I never became The Love of his life.He was a student at a boarding school,whose walls he'd never jumped over until his last 3 years there..shied away from girls.As a kid,he'd been your nerdy guy who hadnt ever been conscious about the presence of females in his life.I dont know if he disliked them or something but what I do know,is that he'd never had those normal crushes that lil kids just entering their teenage usually do..I'm gonna elaborate on this later.
Basically,I've known him for a very long time since we happened to be studying in the same school,and because he happened to be my elder brother's friend.And like it happens in the movies,we played together as bickering 4 year olds who just couldnt stop fighting with each other.Firecrackers burst whenever we met.Back then,firecrackers of cat-dog fights.
A few years after that,firecrackers of our first kiss.Of my first kiss.Of his first kiss.The kiss that sent my heart racing..it didnt give me any butterflies in my tummy though!I always wanted it to,but it just never happened..does that mean that I didnt love him actually?I dunno.
We would've completed 4 years together today if we'd been together.
It'd gone off and on a million times-I mean our relationship(dont feel like calling it that).He's probably dating some other girl now,but the thought of him sends my heart racing till date..!My crush on him has grown 4 years old today.I've started dating another guy,but I still have a crush on him,I still have a crush on my ex who's been my ex 3 times.
This other guy's kisses put me in a discomfit-although they dont send my heart racing,they do give me 'butterflies in my tummy'..so does that mean that I love him and that we're meant to be?
I'm clueless.
Love,
Madhvika
to my lips,your lips find their way.."
The feeling's just that when you kiss somebody whom you're meant to be with-or atleast that's what I'd like to believe..that's what I'd like to believe now that I've finally moved on-now that I've finally moved past the guy who'd been a part of my life since the last 13 years and a part of my love life since the past 4 years-when I say he'd been a part of my love life,I dont mean that we'd been together for so long.But well,yea,he had been an occupant of a pretty spacious area of my heart atleast.
From his side,I know I'd for a very long time been the only romantic connection he ever had,although I never became The Love of his life.He was a student at a boarding school,whose walls he'd never jumped over until his last 3 years there..shied away from girls.As a kid,he'd been your nerdy guy who hadnt ever been conscious about the presence of females in his life.I dont know if he disliked them or something but what I do know,is that he'd never had those normal crushes that lil kids just entering their teenage usually do..I'm gonna elaborate on this later.
Basically,I've known him for a very long time since we happened to be studying in the same school,and because he happened to be my elder brother's friend.And like it happens in the movies,we played together as bickering 4 year olds who just couldnt stop fighting with each other.Firecrackers burst whenever we met.Back then,firecrackers of cat-dog fights.
A few years after that,firecrackers of our first kiss.Of my first kiss.Of his first kiss.The kiss that sent my heart racing..it didnt give me any butterflies in my tummy though!I always wanted it to,but it just never happened..does that mean that I didnt love him actually?I dunno.
We would've completed 4 years together today if we'd been together.
It'd gone off and on a million times-I mean our relationship(dont feel like calling it that).He's probably dating some other girl now,but the thought of him sends my heart racing till date..!My crush on him has grown 4 years old today.I've started dating another guy,but I still have a crush on him,I still have a crush on my ex who's been my ex 3 times.
This other guy's kisses put me in a discomfit-although they dont send my heart racing,they do give me 'butterflies in my tummy'..so does that mean that I love him and that we're meant to be?
I'm clueless.
Love,
Madhvika
Monday, January 25, 2010
All for the dying love.
Take chances.Fight for something you believe in.Tell the truth.Be a spendthrift and spend all the money you have.Fall in love.Sing out loud.Laugh at a stupid joke.Tell someone how much they mean to you.Apologise.Tell that fool how he/she hurt you.Give some money to that little needy child on the road.Hug your Mom before leaving the house.Help Dad wash the car without him asking you to.Be immature..Smile!Dont just exist,Live life..! !
A small text a friend texted me that reminded me how I'd forgotten to live.Felt like sharing it with everybody!
Here to resuscitate my long lost habit of writing-it used to be my only love at some point of time and I'd been whole heartedly faithful to it until love in the other form entered my life like a cool wind blowing over a sun-scorched city ..little did I realise back then that it was really the deceiving eye of the cyclone-temporary relief before the greater apocalyptic cyclone struck my world.
I'd lost my love for writing and my love for many other things by the time this apocalyptic love left my life.
Anyway,I'm back to my old love though now-back to the good ol' days!Although it's a little different from writing in a personal diary,(I'd been pretty expressive and blunt while writing in it),I'm gonna try and be honest about things here as well..!
Love,
Madhvika
P.S.Btw,I tend to drift off at times ..you know,deviate from the main topic at hand.Kindly excuse me abt that?
A small text a friend texted me that reminded me how I'd forgotten to live.Felt like sharing it with everybody!
Here to resuscitate my long lost habit of writing-it used to be my only love at some point of time and I'd been whole heartedly faithful to it until love in the other form entered my life like a cool wind blowing over a sun-scorched city ..little did I realise back then that it was really the deceiving eye of the cyclone-temporary relief before the greater apocalyptic cyclone struck my world.
I'd lost my love for writing and my love for many other things by the time this apocalyptic love left my life.
Anyway,I'm back to my old love though now-back to the good ol' days!Although it's a little different from writing in a personal diary,(I'd been pretty expressive and blunt while writing in it),I'm gonna try and be honest about things here as well..!
Love,
Madhvika
P.S.Btw,I tend to drift off at times ..you know,deviate from the main topic at hand.Kindly excuse me abt that?
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